Fridays Are For Winners

The last hour and a half of my workday is taunting me slowly with the possibility of 63 hours of unplanned weekend with no major chores or tasks that need accomplished besides staying dry and warm. BC and I may rendezvous out on the town tonight, we may not. Laundry could get done, but it’s not urgent. And my must-read Christmas gift book pile is shrinking regularly.

Weekends should always be such open-ended affairs. I spent most of college juggling to see which party invite was the most fun, which volunteer gig had an activity, who I could see and what I could do. In my new-ish thirties, the idea of no obligations is a mini-vacation. And without obligations, every little accomplishment- painting my nails, writing a poem, finishing a great book- seems inflated with power. I’ve done something! Something I didn’t have to do.

Last night, completely out of the blue, the ex called to see if we could meet up and catch up over coffee. And then proposed dinner instead. The wimpy, nice girl part of my brain told me I should. The evil part of me said “Dinner! But that kills a WHOLE evening!” A year ago, the sweet pea would have won out. But instead, I just said no. There’s nothing for us to catch up on. We shared some great, and a lot of not-so-great times. We almost got married. But we are not now, nor will ever be (as far as I know) dinner pals. We are memories.

 So in addition to feeling like the weekend is all mine, I also have the delight of finding my brain and my heart are all mine as well. It’s taken a while, but this lady has learned to say no, firmly and with flair. There may be an 80’s night and some new shoes in my future. Because, I’ll do what I want. For the next 63 hours at least.



Filed under Daily Life, Soul Searching

8 responses to “Fridays Are For Winners

  1. This post is fantastic. I was empowered just reading it – feels so good to only do what YOU want to do, doesn’t it?? Effing awesome.

  2. I am SO GLAD you said no. I have been reading you since before the ex was the ex and I have always thought you handled the situation and his bad behavior so gracefully. It makes me so happy to see that you have truly moved on and don’t feel any obligations towards him. Enjoy your peaceful weekend!

  3. Brian

    Is there any chance you can call or write my wife and tell her we don’t have to do something outside the house each and every Saturday?
    kthanxbye 🙂

  4. I love those moments. Where somehow, despite the swirling shoulds or woulds or coulds in your head, you do the Want – and you are able to recognize it in the moment. Good for you!

  5. I totally had a near-ex experience on Friday too! Apparently it was National, “Ex’s Crawl Out Of the Woodwork” Day and no one told us.

  6. good for you! I’m proud!

  7. Good for you! It’s great that you are doing what is right for you and have found yourself in the process.

Leave a Reply

Fill in your details below or click an icon to log in: Logo

You are commenting using your account. Log Out /  Change )

Google+ photo

You are commenting using your Google+ account. Log Out /  Change )

Twitter picture

You are commenting using your Twitter account. Log Out /  Change )

Facebook photo

You are commenting using your Facebook account. Log Out /  Change )


Connecting to %s