It’s icy out and I’m slipping

Yesterday was the first big snow of the year, five inches or more, plus rain and slush to top it off with. The future mother-in-law offered a ride to work which I gladly accepted, and the fiance’s oldest friend called me by 10 a.m. to offer a ride home at the end of the day so I didn’t have to trudge home. Door-to-door service had me motivated enough on a Tuesday to get home early, crawl onto the couch for a three hour nap, and wake up to have peach cobbler (from scratch) out of the oven for the fiance’s return home.

But this morning, I just couldn’t do it. I woke up, saw the snow still coming down, and wanted to cry at the idea of leaving the house at all, much less slushing up to take three buses before 7 am. I couldn’t bear to be a grown up today. So, I called work, left voicemails all around about the transit delays, and schlumped under a blanket on my couch to doze off and on until noon. By which time there was really no point in going in.

I worry when I have these days. I should be able to do what needs to be done no matter the weather. I have been a good little adult all these months while the fiance’ fell apart. And I wonder if I’m finally relaxed enough to collapse. I have dodged phone calls from potential clients that I need to return. I have left email unanswered. All of which is non-urgent and can be dealt with tomorrow. But I worry that I won’t thaw for tomorrow. I have officially given in to winter and wonder if I’ll be able to pull it back together before spring.

I’m off to baby myself a little, to give myself the go ahead for a day of lazy nothing in hopes that I can do what needs to be done tomorrow. I’m sure a little sunshine and a good dinner wouldn’t hurt. In the meantime, you can find me under the quilt my grandma made, hiding from the big bad snow and pretending that tomorrow will be spring.



Filed under Daily Life, Relationships, Working for a Living

2 responses to “It’s icy out and I’m slipping

  1. im hiding from this crap too!!! see you tomorrow…

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